Life.

So many things are runnning through my head right now. And life is one of them, I kind of figured life would be like this, but its so hard. Things arent the way I immagined things would be like. I thought I'd be more mellow and more friendly. If I change would thing get better? Because all I feel that is going on in my life is people pushing me around thining they can do what they want. And sooner or later I'm just gunna scream in their face and walk away. Its not the first time I would freak out at someone either.

Listen to my Kelsey story. I was sitting in art and she starts making fun of me. Saying that I have no boobs and Im a ginger. It wasnt the first time that she made fun of me and I was done with the bullshit I got from her. So I yelled at her and earlier she almost made me cry. She then yelled at me and I ran out of the room crying. I hated it and maybe since I stuck up for myself that since then she really hasnt talked to me. I like it.

School in general is going better, my grades are getting higher and my friendship with people are ok. Things arent the same as they were in Jenkins. I got boyfriends, and I got problems with people and with myself. Last year after my boyfriend broke up with me I stopped eating at school. I didnt think it was a big deal untill my friends who care about me told the nurse and I had to talk about it. After that I didnt tell anyone when I was eating or not. I then got better and more healthy, and I got heavier. I am now 107 pounds. I feel better about myself and dont find many things wrong with myself.